Help Me

Unhinge me from this pain
Grab my hand and tear me away from the black sorrow
Fill my aura with your presence
With your infinite warmth
Hold me in the stream of light
To wash and bathe me
Clean.

Fill me with the ink of positivity
Help me to recognise the shining
The sweeping brilliance of it all.
Swamp me with the silence
Immerse me into that lake of peace
Where movement ceases
Where tears stop
Where fear dissolves away
Where I can see again
Without having to look.
Persuade me that I am not lost
And can never be
Convince me that I cannot fall
Falter
Or crumble.

Enlighten me with the truth of this dream
And smudge out the misunderstandings
Help me know that I am real
Bewildered as I may be
Help me swim up this path of faith
Believe in me
Please
And pursue me to believe in myself.
Guide me
And dont let me scatter
I need all my parts.

Remind me to breathe
And smile
Remember to tell me that things aren't as serious as I feel they are.
Enforce me to trust once again
Empower me to stand up
Direct me away from oblivion
And tell me
That I can allow myself to feel the love that is coming towards me
For me
And that it's ok to want to love another
So much that I can drown in his kiss
Locked in his embrace.

Let it be revealed that I am special
And help me accept it
No matter what anyone else "thinks."
Help me witness my life and its clusters
Instead of it being what it is.
Let me know that it's ok to be happy
Within
When the dark surrounds me in all its gloom.

Put forward that I don't need to pretend
And that it's ok to be different
Even if it's weird
And unfamiliar to others.
Drill into me that I am resilient
And I can't break
That it's not possible.
Say to me that I am not losing it
That I will always find my way out
No matter what
Now or ever.

Define that I am not insane
If I am laughing and others aren't
That the joy overwhelmed is justified
Without reason
And that it does not diminish me
Or make me less important
Help me know that that's ok.
Assure me that it's completely fine
If it doesn't take a big shock
To make me change my life
That it's great that I can do it anyway.
Help me to not feel alone
Amidst the sea of existence
Help me to belong
Without having to surrender who I am
Give me the signal to understand
That I will not be solitary.

Tell me that it's alright to make mistakes
But more importantly to recognize them
And learn from them.
Help me to allow myself to be me
Whoever that is
Whoever I am
'Cause that's who I'm meant to be
Help me to be
Who I'm meant to be.

Passion Flute

The air was laden with the sound
This miraculous sound
That filled her lungs as she breathed
And painted vibrancy in the colours around her
Her skin tingled as though she had been touched by a playful breeze
She could almost taste this ribbon of sound
As this music transcended all her senses
And stimulated her Soul to witness its depth.

She was abound with its hypnotic quality
She could experience a calm
Coupled with an enthusiasm that made her dance
She didnt want to stifle it
Not this time
Not again.
She desired to blend with this Heavenly sound
And allow it to fill her
The way sunlight flows into an empty room through its window
And blooms into each corner
Submerging it in its radiance.

She was uplifted to sense the awe
Of the atmosphere it created
With each note that was released.
She felt adrift
As though upon a cloud
Soaking up the sky
And locking fingers with the sunshine, in mirth.

Yet a soaring feeling swept up inside
As though she was unfurling out of her deepest self
And she felt what it truly meant to be alive.

It was just the Flute
But,
It was just this Flute
That seemed to gather her Heart, Mind and Soul
And merge them together
Where they resonate as one
Alongside the trills and frills of this Flute Song.

With each vibration of its sound
She gained access further into the well of her Soul
And could permeate through this tangible dream on the flip side
Living in two worlds at once
As a single form of energy.

Parts of the Flute's shining sound even seemed human to her
And she absorbed this within her
In the quiet canyons of her Soul
To tap into when she needed a friend
To derive comfort
And incomprehensible joy.

Drawn into the waves of the slippery voice of this Flute
She felt like a piece of satin
Fluttering over the shoulders of the winds
Flying high and low
Free as the air around her.

Words refused to contain meaning now
And she could only resign to flow in tune with this rainbow of a song
Enchanted
Enthralled
Enriched
And forever distilled in the pure and tender embrace of this Flute
Singing
So passionately.

Nightingale - Yanni
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GhV2ceRw2N4

That Moment

I dont know when it was exactly
That I began to feel for you
But I do know how exponentially those feelings grew
I could never fathom you feeling remotely the same
But before my departure
You took my hands in yours
So affectionately, so tenderly
And you broke into a smile
And looked deep into my eyes
For that moment, you left me breathless
As if the moon had embraced the night
Or the ocean had clasped hands with the shore..
Time and space froze
And despite the din, all I could hear was my heartbeat
You said nothing, but I understood
It was just you and me, in that moment...

I had never seen your eyes so bright before
Nor look at me with such passionate interest
There was a glow about you
As though you were luminous with joy
And I could feel it in your touch..
But your smile, your most charming smile
Was what enthralled me the most
I could stay engaged in this moment for hours...

I felt my entire being become immersed
Immersed in an overwhelming love for you
Never had I imagined, that I could love another with such intensity
But here you were
With your soft, warm hands, enveloping mine
And your captivating smile
It was all I could do to restrain my arms from flinging out to embrace you..

You looked at me so differently than before
As though a soaring love coursed through you too
And in that infintesimal fragment of time
You flipped my world on its head
And changed my life..
You were a miracle right before me
Unfolding..
Your soft gaze held me spellbound
I felt our hearts touch
And with every beat now
Our love grew stronger...

The moment flickered and suddenly cracked
And I turned to leave
As I walked away, I realized I had your love with me and you possessed mine
And I knew that our hearts would always be connected.
I pictured you in my mind and felt your smile,
Your love.
I can never forget that moment
When you altered my existence for all time.

Across Infinity, those few seconds are my most precious.

No matter how far I go, or for how long
I will love you Always
An Always that holds forever
Because when I fell in love with you
It was like throwing a piece of ice in to water
And allowing it to melt
And I dissolved into you
To become one with you
Inseparable.

An Angel Of The Light

The epitome of purity
She is an Angel, here to guide us.
We ask her counsel
She always presents the Truth
Unwavering.
Like a Phoenix
She rises, over and over
Each time the dark sets in
Holding the hands of all around her
Pulling them out of the well of delusion as well.
She cares.
Genuinely
And wants for the good to happen
For all.
She prays
With all her Soul as the offering
Without doubt or hesitation
For the Lord is her refuge
In all the trying times
And in contentment too.
There is great power in her voice
Her each word calls in the Light
It cleanses all those who listen
And beams realization to those who cant.
Selfless and giving
She spreads her affection
As does a knife to butter on toast
To each corner
In each direction
Evenly.
And for all.
For her it matters little
If one is tall or not
If one is dark or fair
Or of any of the uncountable distinctions
That man chooses to divide each other with
For her, each is special
Just the way they are.
Without reservations, she loves each
And without exceptions.
She finds the Light
And will lead everyone to it
The shining spirit that she is.
Every ounce of knowledge she acquires
She generously distributes
To those who search
And to those in need.
She will send the music from her heart
To enrich all around her
With their Holy vibrations.
Despite her human form
She is Divine
The essence of Love personified
To be that beacon of an example
To us, and to them
To eradicate a 'them'
And bring 'us' all to be One.
She subtracts from that which overflows
And replenishes that which lacks
To create a balance in the river of our lives
So that we may prosper.
Whole.
Even to the skeptics and the non - believers
She sends her love and care
Unrestrained
Because sometimes, they're the ones that need it the most.
She acknowledges each
Whether they be great or small
And despite the unbound presence in her being
She makes none feel inferior.
She is a Soul
And yet is part of One
And enriches the love in each Soul around her
She is an Angel
An Angel of the Light
A Spirit, free
Yet, she is connected to all
And in her calm
Peace will reign
For she is the one
Whose strength and wisdom
Will envelope us all
And spread her Light
And complete the broken pieces
To unite us
From all to One.
Into the Light we shall plunge
As a single entity
And become the Light -
To see the Lord
And merge with Him
In the Ultimate Reality
In the Ultimate Heaven.
She is the Angel
The Angel of the Light
Whom we follow and trust
And like her, we shall blossom
As Love
Under the shelter of the Lord.

Unimportant

Have you ever felt like you're not important?
Like most of the time, you're an outcast?
In every game or opportunity
You always get picked last?

You try so hard, only to fit in
And you want to be you, just as you are
But whatever you do is always wrong
And everything they say, leaves a scar

None of them understand how tough it is
To be insulted, alone and ignored
They dont know how it feels to break
And not be strong or emotionally insured

They make you feel something's wrong with you
Because it seems you'll never do anything right
Either you're too short, or your skin is too dark
And the color of your hair just adds to your plight

They never attempt to understand you
Because that, for them, is a futile task
They dont care if you can sing or paint
They will never make an effort to ask

It's a cruel game that they all play
Taking advantage and cutting you so
Despite their ignorance, they feel you are an idiot
If you speak of Einstein, Washington or Truffaut

What do you do, where do you turn?
Will you ever reach a place where you stop trying?
You dont know why only you are the scapegoat
And wonder if you'll ever stop silently crying

They'll only ever be nice to you
To set you up to fall
Then they'll walk right over you
With no hint of remorse at all

They'll see your pain, but they wont care
They actually think it's all an act
Just a bid to get attention, they feel
With no basis whatsoever in fact

You never had it as easy as the others
But they blame you for sorely lacking
It's not your fault, you should know and believe
So dont feel guilty for your edges cracking

It is the most difficult life
To be so afraid, insecure and alone
All you ever wanted was a little support
And a little kindness to be shown

But you are and will be unimportant
Your feelings dont matter and nor do you
You can never win, by their rules
And you will never be part of their crew

But know this, oh Wounded One
Your Fate will change in due time
Just hang in there and summon your strength
And you'll turn out just fine

What they know is only superficial
What you know will carry you through
What you can develop is infinite
Just have faith in your strength for that's what's true

And know this too, for it's not false
You will always shine bold and bright
For unlike them, who cannot see the flame
You carry the Torch of what is good and right

You may be unimportant to them
But they are unimportant overall
And never forget that those who trip others
Ultimately end up with the hardest fall.

Timely Untimely

What if you could mix up Time?
And live your Present in the Past?
Would you wander through the Future a while
And live your Past last?

Could the Past translate into the Future
Into the Present and back to the Past?
Would you move back from the Past or ahead from the Future
And filter the Present unasked?

Would you dive in & out through the tunnels of Time
And change what you didn’t like?
Your fights with Mom, your school, your boss
And date Steve instead of Mike?

Would you marry 5 times and live out each life
Just for fun, then return to the start?
Or would you age younger, from 40 to 20
Then loop it, 6 months apart?

Would you visit the Greats, the Legends of Ago
Be they Sportsman, Musician or King?
Or would you step ahead to see who’s next
Who’ll rule, play or sing?

Would you change your profession and visit reunions
Each time with a different history?
Would you change your hairstyle the moment it’s cut
And do the same with your whiskery?

How many times would you change your choices?
Would you even choose to die?
Would you hop, skip and jump through Time for all time?
And never let Time just go by?

Would you ever live with one decision you’ve made
And live with it unaltered?
Or would you rewind the good times and fast forward the pain
And smudge out the times you faltered?

How many lives would you live in one life?
Would life even be complete?
Would years, months or seconds even mean anything now?
Would age become obsolete?

It would be amusing if you traversed alone
But what if everyone learned to travel?
Whose Present would affect whose Future or Past?
How then would Time unravel?

There would be no system, there’d be only chaos
Like a washing machine, only stranger
What once was, would change with each person
A castle could become a manger

What is up, would be sideways, and sideways would be down
What would Life be in a world so suspended?
You’d never know anything for sure, if it’s real
Or how it began, developed or ended

You would never learn the lessons of Time
You would never truly Live
Because this would be a selfish life
Like give & take, without the give

You may not get older, like Dorian Gray
But ageing will always be different from growing
You think you can outsmart Time in Its game
But presuming is always different from knowing

You’ll never know what True Joy is
An experience of ‘Just One Time’
Because ‘One’ is what Time really is
Past – Present – Future sublime.

[Written: 3:30 am, 28th June 2009]

Metamorphasis

He stands unsheltered upon the rock-face cliff
But he grows no fear for the height of the fall
He only stares out and above for the message
To display for him solutions to his wonderings

He carries the desire to fulfill himself
In learning, understanding and accepting
He wishes to end this estrangement within
And extricate himself from its malignant grasp

He knows it represents a quest
Which shall be rocky to conquer
But he is prepared to tolerate and sacrifice
To engage in the attainment of this Peace

He is halfway there, with his resolve
But can see the mountains ahead
He grabs a fist full of determination
And lets himself take a white step of faith

Unafraid, he ploughs through clouds of confusion
And dusts the blindness off himself
He wipes shadows clear from the root
And emerges through gusts of darkness, undefeated

He looks about himself and sees no injury
He sifts through the winds and races on
Suddenly he sees the crux of his journey in front of him
And stops, tranquil, to claim his breath

Simplicity was that breath of silence
That pondered upon diffused thoughts
He would no longer sink into his abstract life
But rekindle himself, in what remained unshattered

Quiet belief would reign unrestricted
Followed by tender surrender
He would bathe in this profound calm
And hold patience in his hands once more

He is engulfed by a Peace beyond passion
His knowledge is reimbursed by a blinding flash
His polish would be renewed by this light
As his arms eagle out to receive

Shyness has dissolved in the ground beneath him
And apathy refuses to linger on
He can now feel no restraint to change
And un-sense surprise, wonder and amazement

He has no need for acid tears
And allows them to swim into evaporation
He is purified by the abandonment of the false
And releases his dreams from his depth to oblivion

He is crippled no further by ego
he fosters no attachment to guilt
He can forgive who he used to be
And now embrace who he has become

His heart filters what is unrequired
His mind guides, but follows his path
He derives his strength from pure will and breath
While his Soul, as his essence, is what we now see

The Floor Became The Floor Again

As the thick, bold tears fell from her eyes
She clutched at the walls for solace
She was weak with every tear
And could not unbreak what had happened to her.

She folded herself and simmered to the ground
Holding herself, to replace the absence of another
The tears continued to fall
Alongside the searing pain.

She had gotten lost outside herself
She had forgotten what it meant to be peaceful
Happiness had become a concept
And love was storybook material.

She touched the floor beneath her
It was cold and hard, but smooth
"Smooth," she thought, "It's almost seamless"
But took comfort in the fact that it was solid

Solid, unlike the pain she felt
Tangible, like something to hold
For so long, she had wandered in an unreal life
But here, the floor embraced her.

All was not as it should have been
Demons from within had led her without
She was fed lies from the people she trusted
And what she possessed, she had no need for.

Quietly, she gave in to her tears
Allowing her eyes and self to softly burn
She could no further think, speak or feel
But blindly pressed her hand to the floor.

She surrendered all she believed
And harboured no lust, nor fear, nor anger
An explanation didn't matter now
She only wanted to let go

Un-see the seen
Un-think the thought
Be allowed to fall and upright herself
Unburdened with guilt or excuses.

In a moment untouched, she felt a ripple within
As though her heart were pressed back into place
She felt her Soul begin to softly glow
She was now calm, at rest, but still to be at peace.

The floor now felt warm beneath her tips
She no longer crouched within herself
A soaring love enveloped her Soul
And her eyes closed, burning no more.

She saw the glow and touched the love
It was no dream, nor illusion, nor farce
Suddenly she understood all so clear
And the floor became the floor again.

Exhausted, but starting to feel complete
She noticed her breathing deepen and liven
She witnessed the sweet sound of her heartbeat
And she absorbed the punctuated solitude into each piece of her being.

She was dazed, but in the clear
Slightly dizzy, but strong with resolve
Her eyes were moist, but only to replenish
Her comfort was now the calm that surrounded her.

She was alone, yet no longer felt so
In her quiet, her peace was restored
She smiled and lifted herself to full measure
And breathed from within, in the wilderness no more.

I Do Still Love You

You cast a spell on my heart
And showed me a love indescribable
You brought to light a tenderness within
I was never aware existed

You allowed me to dream of a love for you and I
That is as improbable as it is true
Because, we were always worlds apart
In almost every way imaginable

But I do still love you
In only the purest of ways
And hold a prayer in my heart
For the elements to watch over you -

Let the rain shower you with glory
And drench you in its joy
Touch you with each drop, and spread
The bliss of life within you.

Let the sun shine down in bundles
And surround you in its peace
Fill your being with warmth and calm
And protect you like a shield.

Let the winds carry you on their wings
And fly you far beyond your dreams
Breathe the love of the world to you
And always lift you in times of need.

Let the earth never forsake you
And catch you if you should fall
And always hold you close to its heart
And be your unwavering support.

Your life will have no place for doubt
For you are special, as you are loved
Protected like a child from all evil
You will forever prosper, undefeated.

Call upon your heart within
It will always glow with my love
You will never feel alone with this force
And it will abolish all your fears

You will always glisten from your soul
I'll see your light from unfathomable distances
You may be distant, as distant as can be
But I'll always be tuned in, should you call

You may not evoke me to your mind
But I will constantly be praying for you
Because I do still love you
And I will for all eternity.

Not To Be

Emptiness can only exist
In the sea surrounded by despair
And you swallow each minute whole
When the seconds drown as they burn by

You offer no regret
In the demise of all consciousness
But your Soul quakes from within
And the ashes dissolve once more

Darkness is your strong point
For only you can gauge it's depth
Living in it for so long
You have forgotten how life looks

Breathing not, stirring not
You dream an endless dream
Swirling in the well of illusion
You see no truth, you feel no light

You seem to exist, but only just so
Through methods of wrong doing and mis-thought
It matters to you not if you will ever be Right
You will only channel that path which tramples all else

You are not meant to overcome your life, you should know
But join the dance of this world
Yet you chose not to blow with the breeze
And puncture the hearts of all you meet

You should be condemned, here & now
For you burned, hurt, stabbed and forsaked
You bear no guilt, nor responsibility nor feeling
Your heart is so cold, it's hard to conceive the thought

You need to know what destruction you caused
Had you been the receiver, you would be different
You would have seen the illogical, the ridiculous and unfair
And realized, other people do feel

You showed me the evil of anger
How 'normal' becomes suspended
But I saw the after-effects too
Where only remorse, sorrow and loss remain

You made everyday painful
And feel like everything I did was a sin
But you showed me that not even trying to understand another
Only leaves you surrounded by animosity, alone

You believed cheating others would enrich you
And in pilfering, each moment you got
But you lived in fear of being caught at all times
And it was always visible in your every move

You thought you always deserved respect
And demanded it with full measure
But one can never demand, only command respect
And you can never receive it, if you cant learn to give it

You never showed Love, even when you wanted to
You felt ashamed to the very core
You never let what's pure embrace you
And I learnt I should express it every chance I get

You proved by example, with your misdeeds and your wrath
Through selfishness and disregard for all
What not to imbibe in order to evolve
For you were stationary with no love or happiness

Forgiveness is difficult with the amount of suffering you caused
So is understanding, compassion and a prayer
Even though you still feel you did nothing wrong
I will still find the strength to exonerate

Now I am free of your chains
And the mental and emotional war with myself
I still hurt because of what you did
But I thank you for helping me learn how not to be.

Red Rose

Quietly the moon rays touched the Earth in a cool embrace
Seeping through the tree leaves
All was still
Even the water of the lake
The lake at the center of this Paradise
The surface was as though frozen
But within the soul of this water body
Was churning, thrashing, screaming
As if one was was trying to escape
Trying to look for a way out
In the still of the night.
There was the silence of a graveyard here
But the silence was filled with the pain of all suffering
The trees and the lake knew the joy of the sunshine
But come the night, and the dark drinks its way in
Seeping through their every pore
To fill them with an emptiness
No one hears their screams
As they never escape them
A stony presence encompasses the vicinity
Like an erie light within the moonlight
The trees lose their sanity in their fear
The lake pulls herself in, as if to protect herself
The stillness of the night slowly strangles them
How they wish to move, to scream, to escape
But fear engulfs them
And they shiver not
Nor utter a whisper
They become paranoid in their gloom
But there's an answer
To their black and white story
Where the Red Rose
The mellow and sliken Red Rose
Whose subtle bloom one night
Spreads her fragrance throughout
The trees and the lake allow it to sheathe them
And breathe like they never did before
Smiling, happy
Content
They realize the false life in their dread
And emerge in the scent of the Red Rose
Stronger and alive
And they denounce their trepidation as they would a pest
And learn to live through the incorruptible beauty of their life
As does the tender Red Rose
In all its magnificent glory.

[Written: 1:10 am, 20th June 2006]

From Night Unto Sunrise

Soft solitude rings in the Light
Called upon soothingly by its Master
The Silence shines gently through the Night
Slowly at first, and then faster and faster

"Never let go," comes the whisper
It reflects the rain of seldom thoughts
Floating in the melody, whiter and crisper
It releases the pain of the "nevers" and "nots"

Crimson swings within the black
Creating a dream in sky-like foundation
As Love sweeps up between the cracks
Contentment takes the place of Elation

Feeling Hope in solid form
Hovering in the quiet of the Night
Consolidating together, from pieces torn
Swirling closer, from left and bright

Touching the Night, the black, the blue
Holding on to the unread days
Spreading dreams along the calm and true
Locating Peace in streams and rays

Picking up the Moonlight in cups and rivers
Driving past the Oceans on sighs of leaves
Drinking Time in grasps and shivers
Surrounded by what the sky believes

With Tribute installed in the Sun's veins
Summons the blinking tide of release
Loosening the Earth within his chains
Growing into the Sea, piece by piece

Unchecked promises from beyond the draught
Closing in upon the plastic shores
Chastity brewed and bestowed and sought
Following the breeze, through passages and doors

Swallowing the depth and width of sight
The Sun creeps in from indivision
Stretching into entirety from length and height
Shimmering into Light of encircling vision

Shouting out his girth of uninterrupted Light
He sparkles the Night into the Past
He continues the transition from soft to white
And brings the Day to awaken at last

The Night And The River

She follows the River of the Night
Into the deep caverns of the falls
The water breaks in a hopeless attempt
To contain the strength of the dark

She's alone, yet unafraid
Gliding along through the still within
And finding that Treasure along the shore
As she climbs the waters, holding each drop for support

She sails on her Faith
Trusting the tide to save her
And relinquishing control
To the silent of the Night

Untampered calm resides
In the weightless dark
As it completes the Night
Alongside her waves

There is no plight
Among the dark and grey
The River shines through
Countless, by the Night

It remains unshattered
Like the water of the Love that binds it
And towers along the ground
In the plains of the exquisite

Reflecting the dark
Soundless in perfection
She flows to deeper meaning
And embodied empowerment

The soft of the Night
Calls out to the Sky
And encircles them
In a display for the Heavens

The Wind sings to the Night
The River provides harmony
And the caverns and the dark
Accompany in flight

The Night holds up the dark
The dark, flipside of Light
And burns in the waves
Of the River, as an escape

Unbending, the Night sighs on
And savours the Love of the River
And they hold hand in hand
In their dance, that drifts between

[Written: 1:00 am, 19th March 2009]

Colors

The Lights are White and Blue
Thin streams
Running on
They intertwine
Fluttering in a symphony
Yellow dives in
And creates a Silver with the Blue
Mauve circles, not interfering
Just observing
She sees it all
And will join at the right moment
Red begins to run alongside
Wanting to overtake
But running in tandem
Green jumps in
He creates a spiral
Golden twirls around him
Entering from the top
Pink emerges
And takes her position between White and Blue
They hold her hands
All three smile
Mauve embraces all three
Careful not to drown out any of them
Golden snakes off Green and attaches to Silver
They both form a circle
Red aligns on the inside
Yellow plunges in
And covers the void
Blue pulls everyone close to the center
Suddenly all of them shine out full
Unto Eternity
As they ascend
They twist around each other
In a blending dance
They each are distinct in each
Yet unite
And are stronger in this whole
Their intensity ploughs even further
Than it's gone before
In a dazzling display
Of Strength
Especially in the wilderness
Demonstrating the Truth
They spin
And then they diverge in a spread
Yet they hold on to each other
Somewhere
Gathering support from each other
To shine
And provide support
To shine
They are just like us
Or rather we are like them
If you look at it
Maybe not exactly
But there are similarities
We all are of a color
Sometimes we shift between shades and textures
But we always will return to True Essence
Sometimes we embody other colors
To Live a purpose
Sometimes we see parts of our color
In others
And become part of them
Each color feels different
And sounds different
But is never incompatible
To merge with another
We cant live in Black and White
Not forever
We must dissolve in our color
And Be.
Holding hands
Connected through our Hearts
We will spin
In the dance of Grace
And love out each color
Till we merge and fade
Into the Ultimate
An Entity of every shade imaginable
And we will embody Peace
In every Light that exists
Forever

[Written: 6:45 pm, 18th March 2009]

When He Sings

He can light up the sky
He can make clouds crumble
He can turn ashes to life
And turn light into water
He can make it rain, if he wants
And flowers bloom, back into life
He creates a magic never experienced
And turns reality into a dream -
When he sings

There's a sunrise in each heart
A taste of a symphony in his voice
The fragrance of wet earth gleams
And the trees enter a dance
A myriad of colors are blended into sound
You can hear the grace of a dancer's moves
It washes all minds clean
And wraps you in the embrace of his voice -
When he sings

He reveals the shades of his voice
Constellations collapse with it's enormity
The Universe is blanketed with ecstasy
And the galaxies smile in his perfection
All of mankind is conquered
His voice heals all pain
He can pause Time in flight
He can create miracles -
When he sings

He can influence each particle of water
As his song spills across the oceans
His voice walks on those waves
Leaving behind his essence in it's current
The fire in his voice is so gentle
Each note just melts into his texture
And feels like the softest caress
Like air touching water -
When he sings

His voice floats, at times
And sometimes it soars
It has the power to bend light
It can stop gravity, even if just for a moment
Sometimes it's serene, like drops of moonlight
Sometimes it roars like a storm
But his voice is a piece of his Soul
And he can converse with the Heavens -
When he sings

Like She Always Does

Each dream was untouched
Like she couldnt bear to know what they contained
But they were hers
And at some point she would face them
Not today.
For the most part, she felt dreams were good
But lately something just flipped that switch
And they just seem like shadows
At times she wants to give in
And just let the strong current of these dreams
Just take over
And let herself be swept away
Unconscious...
But she's got enough sense to not let that happen
She just gets tempted sometimes...

She's moving along
Just as she always was
But now, its different
She's not as carefree as she used to be
Things weigh her down
And she tries her best to deal with them
And solve the ones that have a solution
But what she tries hardest for is
To not give up control
That she's in charge of her decisions
And these problems can make times hard
But they will never rule over her

Its confusing for her
Many a time
What to do
Or say
Or think
Or feel...
It's challenging sometimes
And she gets scared
And feels vulnerable
She shakes within
But she goes on
Like she always does
Coz that's what she can do

She's got no one to depend on when she needs it
And she might fall a few times
And the tears fly
And she sinks
But she never lets herself go so deep
That she cant see the light anymore
Its hard
No one really bothers to understand what it feels like
And she's left to make sense of it all
From the ashes
And she does get lost
Coz she hasnt got that voice telling her
That it's gonna work out
That she's gonna make it through
But she always does
And she goes on
Like she always does

Unkissed
Unconsidered
She wanders
Living from moment to moment
Synchronising herself with the tide
Making calculated guesses
Basically trying
To be what is expected of her
If only people would be more understanding
She's not a bad person
She's just trying to be who they want her to be
All she really wants is to be herself...
Let go of all the pretending
And adjusting
And compromise
And like things without guilt
Do things coz they make her happy
Paint, dance, sing, climb a mountain
Even if she doesnt know how
At least she'll be real
And she'll have a smile
And she'll reach some kind of Peace...

All she ever really wanted was acceptance
That's why there was all the acting
And the extra
Just an attempt to fit in
Sometimes she gets it
Sometimes not
But she cant stop just because of that
She goes on
Like she always does
Hoping
That someone along the way would see
What the others have missed
And if not completely
At least make an attempt to understand her
And allow her to show herself
In her skin
And that for once
She can move ahead
Instead of just going on...

The good thing is
She will never give up
To her, no matter how bad things will get
There will always be a way out
She knows
That she may feel trapped
But it's an illusion
And she'll make it out of there
Safe
It will be hard
There will be challenges
And rejection
And misunderstandings
And confusion
And weak moments
And she might get mixed in at times
But she's got her self
Her inner her
And even though there's no voice helping her out
She'll never crumble
Because somewhere
She knows
For a fact
That she can go the distance
That she'll make it
And all these hurdles will be gone...
She can do it
Like she always does.

Why...

Both of them felt it
Like they were very deeply connected
Its as if his heart pumped the blood in hers with every beat.
She knew he cared
He knew she cared
But they never connected on a conscious level

She was mesmerised by him
His very Soul seemed to shine through
He was aware that she saw it
But he couldnt do anything about it
And it made him feel insecure
Because nobody had ever noticed it before
He thought it wasnt that significant
But she saw it
And she thought it was beautiful.
Golden, she thought the color to be.
Sparkling golden.
Like sunshine
In the air
It held the colors of the rainbow within it
It left her breathless for a moment
Entranced...

She wondered if he had noticed her
Most of the time she felt insignificant
But if he looked at her
And if he smiled
Just the acknowledgement felt special
She felt special.
She felt loved in a very odd way
Like she knew it, but didnt understand it
At least, not in her heart or mind.
Her Soul knew why she felt that way
But wouldnt let her know
She just felt it was playing tricks on her
Because she didnt know why she was connected to him
Why she felt a connection but didnt know of it
Why she felt it, but couldnt feel it at the same time...
She wished someone would tell her
Or that she could find out why...

She cared for him
Just as he cared for her
In a way neither of them could comprehend
And that scared her slightly
She's also scared that he knows it
Still, she derives comfort that he knows it

What they share is special
Something so beautiful, she wondered
How either of them lived without it for as long as they did
But it's entirety will always remain a mystery
And perhaps in Time, understanding will develop
But until then, they shall continue
With the glances
And the smiles
And all the hidden meanings
And their individual interpretations of such...

She never really chose him
And he never really chose her
Yet they touched each either
On a level only they could access
She feels special
She feels grateful
It happened
But she doesnt know why...

[Written: 12:55 am, 1st May 2007]

Compass

Your Soul's Compass
Is your Heart.

There are countless paths
And each path follows another
Or merges
And diverges
And twirls and circles around
Or angles out and changes.
It is always confusing
But your Heart knows what's right
And leads you on
Because within this instrument
All directions are one
And with the Soul's Wisdom
All is conquered.

The last thing to ever feel, is lost
Because just like you are never truly alone
You are never truly lost.
Each direction is a path
And you can only see the first few steps in front of you
Not the end.
Not in the beginning, anyway.

Each path is to be travelled
And right now, there's no knowing what's in store.
But there's no need to worry
Or to be afraid
Because there is no wrong choice.
No matter what path you chose
There will be good times
And there will the be the not-so-good.
It solely depends on you
What you make of each moment on that path.

Sometimes you feel lost even though you've chosen a path
But your Compass is truly your guide.
It will show you your strength
When you need to go on.
It will call upon Love
When you feel all alone.
It will summon Hope
When you look around and see nothing.
It will show you the Light
And you will know what is important.
Ultimately, that's all you'll ever need.

In each challenge lies the seed of opportunity.
In each opportunity lies the potential of the World.
Tap into that Energy
Trust in your Heart
Follow your Compass
And that's when the answer shall come
And "lost" will bear no meaning to you anymore.

A Journey Within

It's a Journey Within.
A Journey of the Soul
From the Soul
To the Soul.

It's a complex concept -
Where the Source, path of Journey and Destination are the same
But yet exist on a parallel
On the same dimension.

Traversing the veins of thoughts
Climbing over the mountains of the Mind
And swimming in the rivers of the Heart
Imagination and Faith are your guides
Breaths of wind blow, soft breezes
Each step feels right.

You carry your saftey gear of Love, Courage and Hope
And a backpack full of Determination, Strength and Resolve
You feel warmer from Within with each step
And you feel the glow emanating from your centre
And encompassing your Soul.

The sun shines through your eyes
And the moon beams through your smile
You blossom with the light of uncountable Suns
You are no longer lost in the thick of black, unknowable space
But ARE that Guiding Light
And just know -
You exist in the Universe and the Universe exists in you
And your Soul is One with Infinity
In that realized moment.

You're alive like you're never been
And this is what is real.
This is your Truth.

Who you are, your Source and Destination were never different
But you just live through it all
To see yourself grow
To help others grow
So that when you return
You level of Spirit has evolved
Even though your Essence remains constant.

It's a Journey Within
A Journey of the Soul
From the Soul
To the Soul.
It's not a circle, nor a straight line
There is no defined or constant shape
But it is Divine.
You can never get lost
The Light is always shining
Within or Without
And that's all you'll ever need to know.

Unbreakable

Undying
Like the breeze
That jumps accross the water
And showers upon the Soul.
It's Divine
Held in the arms
Of the dream that binds the love
And the trust together.
It holds no grudges
It carries no lies
Its purity is undying
And it flows to no end.
Unkissed
Untouched
Unfaltering, it moves
Unseen by the naked eye
But it's force touches upon all
And uplifts
Inspires
And blends it's Wisdom of endless Time
With that of the current.
It will always change course
It adapts to each need
And leaves out none.
It cares.
Genuinely.
There cannot exist pain
In the same space
Nor anger
Nor fear
And the Source merges with it
To create an intangible being
That is the Essence of the Soul
And it exists
Within the blend
And completes the Soul
In each way possible.
Uncountable
Untraceable
Unbreakable
Such is the strength of it.
And so shall it continue to remain.

Focus

Focus. That's what its about.
What's clear.
What's not.
What ends up making sense
And what fails to do so.

Each time, I watch
Apparent are those metal rods
That make up the fence
And when we speed past it
Either I can view the fence
And it's spokes
Or I can take in the green grass and garden behind.
It depends on how I see it.
It depends on the Focus.

It's the same with the side of the pavement
Which they slather yellow and black.
First yellow.
Then black.
Then yellow.
Then black.
And it goes on..
But twin with the metal fence
I perceive 2 things
I can either see the yellow and black slabs
Or catch the combination.
And it only happens when I'm moving at a speed
Not otherwise.
But again, it depends on Focus.

Reminds me of Life, in a way
It's always shifting at a speed.
And it's just how you observe things
That they will affect you so.
So just Focus -
On whatever works
And what makes most sense
And what is important
And you're all set.