Saturday 19 December 2009

Help Me

Unhinge me from this pain
Grab my hand and tear me away from the black sorrow
Fill my aura with your presence
With your infinite warmth
Hold me in the stream of light
To wash and bathe me
Clean.

Fill me with the ink of positivity
Help me to recognise the shining
The sweeping brilliance of it all.
Swamp me with the silence
Immerse me into that lake of peace
Where movement ceases
Where tears stop
Where fear dissolves away
Where I can see again
Without having to look.
Persuade me that I am not lost
And can never be
Convince me that I cannot fall
Falter
Or crumble.

Enlighten me with the truth of this dream
And smudge out the misunderstandings
Help me know that I am real
Bewildered as I may be
Help me swim up this path of faith
Believe in me
Please
And pursue me to believe in myself.
Guide me
And dont let me scatter
I need all my parts.

Remind me to breathe
And smile
Remember to tell me that things aren't as serious as I feel they are.
Enforce me to trust once again
Empower me to stand up
Direct me away from oblivion
And tell me
That I can allow myself to feel the love that is coming towards me
For me
And that it's ok to want to love another
So much that I can drown in his kiss
Locked in his embrace.

Let it be revealed that I am special
And help me accept it
No matter what anyone else "thinks."
Help me witness my life and its clusters
Instead of it being what it is.
Let me know that it's ok to be happy
Within
When the dark surrounds me in all its gloom.

Put forward that I don't need to pretend
And that it's ok to be different
Even if it's weird
And unfamiliar to others.
Drill into me that I am resilient
And I can't break
That it's not possible.
Say to me that I am not losing it
That I will always find my way out
No matter what
Now or ever.

Define that I am not insane
If I am laughing and others aren't
That the joy overwhelmed is justified
Without reason
And that it does not diminish me
Or make me less important
Help me know that that's ok.
Assure me that it's completely fine
If it doesn't take a big shock
To make me change my life
That it's great that I can do it anyway.
Help me to not feel alone
Amidst the sea of existence
Help me to belong
Without having to surrender who I am
Give me the signal to understand
That I will not be solitary.

Tell me that it's alright to make mistakes
But more importantly to recognize them
And learn from them.
Help me to allow myself to be me
Whoever that is
Whoever I am
'Cause that's who I'm meant to be
Help me to be
Who I'm meant to be.