Hawas

Solid in the darkness
Shadows crept upon the light
She can't turn to liquid or dust
Or waver in the wind
Opting to merge with it or accept all it offers.
Can wind really carry this lust -
Soaked
Drenched
From the trenches of skin?

Flesh is too deep to convey
The featherweight of the fire.
It weighs so dragging
Yet only encompasses breadth like sound
Empty in matter
Yet saturated in existence.
It is a way to live
But not the only way
And such a cost of time
From the mind.
To slither through the silken sheets
Once released
That is its actual spending -
In currency of the body
Through the vessel of the skin
To sink as it rises further
Deeper to the peaks of ecstasy.

Apples
Caresses
Grapes twirling down a long vine
A lingered touch
A long slow breath -
Let it whisper this plenty
While you surrender your senses
To the quicksand that is
This insatiable longing
Absent of Love,
Blind passion
Slave to the carnal fury
Dwelling at the surface
Of a sweltering heat
Building within,
Only to break
In the realization
That this is a fraternal echo
Of your authentic desire
To be held
Like you are the only one
To make her feel alive in your warmth
That resonates from the riverbed of your heart
To let her being seep into yours
Like a whispering rain
To know the dance of the sensual from the false
To finally arrive
At the blissful union
Of two becoming one.

To Be Embraced Like That

Do you know what it is like to be held
Close, and tender
An all encompassing embrace?

The kind where your hearts align
And suddenly you feel an incredible expanse
As though you feel the whole Universe between you two
Emanating out...

The kind which surrounds you with warmth
And pours it within
Reaching a deeper dimension
Where it doesn't stay limited to a physical feeling

The kind where you're so connected your Souls touch
To exist untouched by anything else
In a consortium of joy
Love, and exalted harmony.

Where you actually feel what it is to lose yourself in the moment
In that feeling
In the sheer breadth of that space in time
Experience the moment live and breathe with you
And gently sigh with the weight of the shared calm you both hold.

To be embraced like that

Clasped,

To live like that, in a compound moment -

I think that's what we need.

Could You Hold Me Whilst I Weep?

Could you hold me whilst I weep?
My being requires to crumble
To splinter
Utterly shatter
Before it can phoenix again.

My heart has clutched on to strength too long
Scotch-taping itself at every instance
Bleeding through the cracks
Yet soldiering on
Silently
Lest someone suspect anything.

'Tis a monumental task
To breathe while your breath is leaking
And maintain pretense
That all is traveling well.
'Tis like shouldering a mountain
Balancing each layer of hardened tears
And painting a smile
On a struggling face.

I've just been holding on
To each fragment
Each thread
Each microscopic piece
Of the web of intertwined responsibilities,
Even to the intangible pressure
Of the building pain
Whilst they all pulled at me from impossible directions.
I had to.
I couldn't allow collapse
Even momentarily.
The only thing to do
Was to consciously take a step
And then another
And another -
Forward.
Bending,
Only to not break.

But now
The timer has gone off
The effort can cease
I can trough
I must
To being the process to crest again.

All I ask is
Could you hold me whilst I weep?

Shades of Grey

Can we be shades of grey
I want to live in your spectrum
Rejoice in the sunlight of your smile
And to wipe away your frown
When you're trapped in anger
Can I swim in your peace
And we can divide the melancholy bits
Can we live it all
Without having to choose
Can we be simple and complex
Can we be shades of grey?

Would you let me in
When you're feigning bravery
And let me shoulder some of your pain
You don't have to do this alone
Let yourself fall
And allow me to gather your fragile fragments
I'll piece you back together
With my love and strength as the glue.
And I'll be your banister as long as you need one
No matter how steep your life's stairs are
And don't be a fool
You need someone to hold on to
Just don't fight it
And hold on to me
I will see you through

Let us quarrel
Argue till we're spent.
Go ahead
Cut me with your words
Let it out
Let me be your release
It's OK
I'll get back up again

Grant me audience to your laughter
I will sync my smile with yours
I will fuel your amusement
And afford you further reason to chuckle.
And the sun may set
And rise beyond the morning
But we will be constant
In mirth
I guarantee it

Come
I have happiness to spare
Let us bask in the breadth of this joy
And let it envelop us
Till we don't know where I end and you begin.
We can fly
On this magic carpet of bliss
Such a things exists
And I will take you there

And when you're cold
And weak
And falling out of strength
Unlock the door
I will surround you with my care
And heal you back to stability.
There is no disease
That my love can't cure
And I will lay me down
So that you can stand back up

When you crave stillness
I will halt
When you desire solitude
I will disappear
I understand space and silence
And how it will replenish you
I will give you what you want
Even if I can't give it to you

If I feel you, I feel it all
It can't be just the merriment
Or the misery alone
And I don't want to choose
To only love you
Or not to love you at all.

Can we not be black and white?
Can we be shades of grey?

Language

They are using different languages
But are speaking the same words
Translation is just the skin
The interpretation rides on

Speaking the syllables of a smile
The metaphors of touch
They delve far beyond where mere meaning begins to congeal
Her lips move, purse and part
And he hears their rhythm
His eyes blink, flicker and miss
And she's read his story

Their instruments of expression rest on the intangible
Through poems of embraces
And sonnets of caresses
Through phrases of togetherness
Breathing through the pauses
And punctuating each breath.

Their grammar consists of peace
Stitched together with limericks of trust
Spun out of the yarn of affection
Their verbs are synonymous with Love
Creating and distributing all its forms
Dyeing in, shades of harmony
Into their exalted fabric of Life.

Their speech is a but a look
A thought
An intention
Conveyed through wordless prose
And tranquil wonder
Spoken through brackets of voice
And saturated silence.

Each letter
Of each gaze
Narrates the strength of their story
They complete each others sentences
Without the words to speak
They know the conversation of feelings
And the blind communication of Love
Because understanding goes so far beyond words
Beyond forevers
Beyond translations
They know
And that is their only language.

Your Love Was Never Mine To Own

You spoke to my heart by your smile and touch

Your seeds of affection here were sown

It took me so long to realize, my love

Your love was never mine to own.

You'd sigh each time I'd stroke your hair

Like it meant something special to you

Was it my imagination? Was I mistaken?

Was it even remotely true?

You'd hold me so close when we'd embrace

So much closer than what was normal

Why does it feel so different now?

So impersonal, so strained, so terribly formal?

Your eyes would speak, they'd carry a depth

Of a closeness never else shown

Why are they so intensely empty now?

Was that understanding purely on loan?

How can you just halt what you're feeling?

How can you just erase it so clean?

It makes me wonder if it was even real

How can it de-exist? How can it never have been?

I couldn't have fallen in love with you faster

It was so expertly, so brilliantly played

You succeeded in pulling off this disaster

And still convinced me that you were betrayed

You left me to wither, to shrivel, and carry

The burden of a breaking heart

You were content slinking around in the background

Watching, uncaring, as it crumbled apart

You spoke to my heart by your smile and touch

Your seeds of affection here were sown

It took me so long to realize, my love

Your love was never mine to own.

This Unparalleled Miracle

Transparent sound

Gliding through my veins

Accompanied by the potent light

Solid in strength

Stretching out

Rivering through each particle of my being

Unseen

Through the essence of thought.

It flows

Carpeting its path

Making the winter of its trail obscure

Leaving behind a rush of prose

In beams

Smiling

As it were

To complete the oblique

And restore the splintered.

Polishing the coarse

Unrefined

And inexperienced

This Force glows

Penetrating the damaged

With its magical balm

Riding through the cracks

Soothing them

Sealing them

Healing them as it passes.

The longer it courses

Its strength builds

Incorporating the hurt and pain

That it collects along the way

Swallowing it to it's own being

Assimilated and converted

Twirling along

With this intense radiant illumination

To reverberate

Undistinguished

Gaining resolute support

Generated through the belief

That something so powerful

Truly is greater than the sum of its parts.

Each of its incarnates

Are stemmed from the same source

Together

They resonate with the brilliance of a billion suns

Shimmering over a billion galaxies

Individually

They blaze with the same intensity

No less equal

Than each stream bundled into one.

It exists to exist,

Without substitute,

To surround.

It can be split only to remain undivided

Breathing itself gently

Into the hearts that care - 

Willingly.

It pervades each particle of its surroundings

Serenading Life

Its Truths

And quintessence

Through its mystery.

How it functions

Is known

Yet

It is discovered

In each instance of its rise

Unwittingly.

We may never conquer it

But it will always render victory

With its surrender

And transform us

Inside out

Each one

Uniquely

Through its presence

Through its existence

Through its experience

This Unparalleled Miracle called

Love.

Just Let Me...

Let me sink into you arms

Feel your warmth

Your tenderness

Your quiet passion

Seeping from your heart

And wrap me in your universe

For this lifetime

For this moment.

Let me breathe you in

Swim in your essence

And transcend the physical

To be intertwined

With your love

To be pulled into your gravity

And remain magneted to you

Fused at the heart.

Let me feel no distance

Nor emotion

Nor thought

Just let me be suspended in your arms

And feel the warmth of your skin build

Your heartbeat melt with mine

And the world around us

Whisper itself out of sight.

Lets just float in this moment

Where time holds its breath

And all that matters is

You and me.

Let me blend with your touch

And witness the lush, gentle softness of your affection

Just let me be close to you

Where space runs out

Where we can close our eyes

And all that's left is us

And Now.

Let me experience this Forever

Here

Enveloped in your arms

Hidden in your caress

Shining through each breath

Revealed by your love.

Let me be close to you

Feel your rich intensity

And live this dream.

Let me breathe you in

Deep and slow

And be drenched in your care.

Just let me sink into your arms

Be loved by you

And love you

The way it was meant to be.

Spiritual Revolution

Dont you ever feel consumed by guilt

Or fear, or anger, superstition or greed

For these aren't the materials of which you are built

Nor the ones you should want or need

Stop worrying about fitting in or blending
Hang up your fears and leave your ego on the shelf
No need to act, and you can stop pretending
Just give up control and be yourself.

That's where it begins, that's where it starts
Like a collective breath of your Soul and Essence
It's the sum and integration of all your parts
Acknowledging all the layers of your presence

It's where you'll find all your answers
The whole spectrum, unbent and true
It's natural, like music to singers and dancers
The place where you're safe, where your heart can renew

Where Love shouldn't be therapy for your Soul
But rather it's essence and design
Where it's Truth will set you free and make you whole
And your Heart, Mind and Soul align

Tell your Alternate Self, though it may squirm
That you no longer feel its need
Hold on to your Truth, be firm
No matter how much it may beg and plead

Allow your being to be guided by the Force
Where your heart is open and and you can clearly see
Just flow into yourself, follow your Source
What you are comes out to Be

There are no thoughts and your mind is free now
What matters is - you're you
Basic, beautiful, unique - and how!
Stop looking around for a clue

The Treasure lies buried within you
It's not riches, diamonds or gold
Release your doubt, it'll come into view
As the bounty of Wisdom and Love manifold

The time has come to embrace your Light
It's time for a Spiritual Revolution
Live through your Soul with your Love burning bright
It's the one and only, the Ultimate Solution.

Changed

He stands upright

Yet leaning

Hinting for support to the energies around him

He's taken a large stone to the heart

Catching him off guard

And he watches helplessly as the cracks radiate out

Even beyond his being

Leaving him shattered

Yet standing.

A whole world in his life has been demolished

And all he can do is watch

Witness

As it lays whimpering before him

Sighing in agony

Chipping away at him

With each breath.

He's swimming in the arrhythmia of his surroundings

Attempting to search for a solution

Looking for any sign of hope

Before the night mists over.

He wants to count on Time

To play sport

And throw him a few chunks of Its endless stream

Stretching the Now

To help him salvage what he can.

He wants to coat a balm

Over all the loss

And all those about him

Who are enduring a reality

Asymmetrical to anything they ever imagined.

He can see the pain

Beneath their brave smiles

He can sense the defeat

Hidden in their eyes

And especially the fear

Of the uncertain road ahead -

Its practically tangible in air.

But he knows

He cannot allow himself to disintegrate

Not right now

Time will provide for that later.

Right now

He must concentrate his focus

Unsplinter his Spirit within

And wake his resources

As the dusk around him begins to sob.

On his shoulders rest the tears of many

Whose Earth has been pulled out from under them

And who lie

Shivering

Among the rubble

Half wanting to assimilate into it

To escape the effort of re-establishing themselves

Half searching for support

In the only thing remaining standing

No matter how frail.

He wasn't waiting for Change

But now that it's here

Staring him in the face

He needs to do more than just stare back.

It might take a few moments

To reassemble his strength

But he will translate into that Fire

Majestic in potential

Blazing with resolve

And soldier on

Rebuilding what he can restore

And creating fresh what he cant.

He'll pick up what's fallen -

Possessions, emotions, energy..

Be the crutch to the unstable heart

Be the scaffolding to the unsettled mind

Be the pillar to the broken Spirit -

He will just Be

Allowing his Light to comfort the affected

Sharing his heart and hands

In blind support.

He may never attain the perfect solution

And things may never be the same again

But he never learned how to give up

And one way or another

He will phoenix from all the anguish

More resilient on the other side

More solid from within

Healed to breathe and beat once again

Revitalized

Changed.

Your Love

Please nourish me with your Love
As does water to stone in a waterfall
Washing over it
Soaking into it
Breathing its presence
Into the deepest core of this rock
And allowing it to transform
Into a tender, soft piece of affection
To finally assimilate into the flow of your Love
And furnish my heart
To the comfort of your care.

Hold me close
Wrap me in your arms
As does the resonant sunshine
Around the trees and the rivers
Encompassing the Earth
In the bounty of its Love
Throwing out the beauty of Life
To the elements
Allowing the elements
To melt away with the beams
And unite with this rich source of Love.

Breathe me into your affection
With each caress to my skin
As does a wisp of a breeze
That glides across the surface of a lake
Shining out the quietest ripples
That carry the softest kiss
Like a whisper in the wind
Connecting two Spirits
To merge like the harmony of Day and Night
United by each breath
Into the peace of your Love.

Please surround me in your care
Into the Silence that dwells in this haven
Where the embrace of your light
Is a shelter and a home
Where affection sprouts up
Through the spring of this nourishment
Crowning each moment in tranquility
And energy of this force
Deemed so powerful simply in its existence
Never to be created nor demolished
Complete and pure, as your Love.

Tears Of A Child

No dont let him cry
This Angel of a boy
Whose complexion of love is so pure
Untarnished
By judgement
By reason
Unconditional.

Dont let him cry
And shed those drops in pain
When the cause is irrelevant
To his comprehension
And his lament.

The mirror of his Soul is so clean
No dusty layer
Of experience
Of mistakes
Of regrets
Of shame.
Not yet.
Let him be in this state
Vacant
In blissful being
And unburdened
Before Time wings him away
And his eyes begin to reflect another story.

Let him rest
As he does now
Upon his Grandfathers shoulder
Pressed against his chest
Cradled in his arms
Witnessing a heartbeat
And considering it an unspoken miracle.
Let him sink
Into the love of this man
That holds him
As he grips the sleeve of his Grandfathers shirt
In his most tiny fist
And feels love through this inanimate thing
As though it shares a connection to the heartbeat.

Let him breathe
Unpressured
Unsaddled
Allowing him to believe each breath
Will link him to each moment
Unexplained
Unrestricted.

Let him rest
And not be pulled into the vortex of understanding
Of reason
Now is not the time
For now, he is innocent in his innocence
Stripped of fault
And the guilt that accompanies it.

Let him just be
Awake in existence
Leaving interpretation to the winds

Let there be no reason
For tears of a child.

Drifting In A Variable Universe

Blending into the walls
She seems to penetrate the realm
Between visibility and existence
Matching the wallpaper of the situation
Merging into its design.

Swept away by her chameleon feelings
She whimpered many a night
Distant from herself
Craving to fuse with an entity
Any entity
In the plain hope that she may feel solid again.

Dreams intertwine with each other
And with what appears to be fact
Crossing over the dimensions of the unconscious
Well beyond
Creating a novel fusion of realities
Proving the act of its deciphering
A devouring task
Flanked between what she feels and what she thinks she sees.

She is drifting in a variable universe
Uprooted from all that she knew to be authentic
Coasting along
Aware
Yet lost
Amidst the sincere uncertainty
Not knowing when this vision she's participating in
Will choose to mold itself again
Casting her into another unknown field of dreamlike wilderness.

Floating away into an abyss of change
Her life now resembles an ever sustaining pirouette
A coin tossing in the air
And her futile attempts to study it in motion
To gauge its result
Assuming, of course, that it does land
At some point.

She may gravitate towards the black holes of doubt
Those deceiving, all consuming black holes
But except for their magnetism
The hold not strength
And only display a facade of an ability to vanquish.
She must be wary, however
For they filter through the layers of the universe
Changing their spots
Their loyalties
And each next endeavour to hoodwink her
Could become her undoing.

She's fallen for many a fickle heart
Blinded by her own inexperience
Hoping the next would be different
And that she would feel at least an ounce of love
Exhausted, she resigns to the vacuum
Lingering
Desiring desperately to approach any sign of sanity
Drifting
Shifting..

She wishes to be exempted from the unpredictability
Of this wavering universe and its alternates
She's become a soluble ingredient
In its churning and swallowing
But still sees no finished product being fashioned.

Her search for a stable shoulder to lean on
Is as spread out as this universe
And it is hard to wrap her head around the concept of seamless transformation
Let alone get used to the idea.

She has nothing to clutch on to
But for her undying faith
That whatever circumstances stalk her
No matter how blatant
She will find an escape -
An ultimate redemption.

Untense

Untense
Spark
Flow like the meter winds
Drift along like the log in the stream
Sing
Whisper
Touch
Untense.

Let your flame burn
Let it scatter
Spark
Unchecked
Untamed.
Peek through that fringe once in a while
Smile at the sky
Feel the shine
Let loose the sparkle
Drink in the mercy beyond the guilt
Soften the sands of dreams that float in the vicinity
Stumble
Fall
Allow
Untense.

Let go
Swim in the ozone
Breathe in through the leaves
Undrown those aspirations
Fulfill your Destiny
The Destiny of your choice
Speak out
Unfurl
Untense.

Reach out
Front and apart
Spark out
As does a firecracker
Birthing out into the night sky.
Abandon those cages
Where you stored your feelings
Your dreams
Your love
Love for that someone
Beyond reason -
Tell him
Release
Unclench
Untense.

Unerase the mistakes
Unfault
It's ok.
Believe in the expanse
Beyond religion
Beyond meditation
Set free your heart
Let it beat
Dont flee
Unshiver
Unfear
Untense.

Scream out
Bleat
Express
Delete
Swing the axe
Deplete
Unsave
Drain
Untense.

Unkeep the dark
Syncopate
Flash the rhythm
Center the tune
Touch
Sense
Realize
Uncomplicate
Untense.

Deliver the burn
Let the comfort scorch
Dribble the passion
Untear the life.
Single out
Unfold
Brighten
Untense.

Derive
Deliver
Blossom into the air
As bubbles do when they open
Unhold withhold
Blend
Grasp
Clutch on
Untense.

Remember the moment
Caring unhatched
Served unbroken
Unaltered.

Immerse within
Relive
Release
Rebreathe
Derail the pain
Break the swelling
Reveal the white recovery
Healing the punctuated wound
Unfence
Untense.

Filter
Unsmoke
Sensitize
Unbreach
Restore
After the destruction
Crush the violence
Love Bereft
Intense
Untense.

Uncry
Rejoin
Believe
Love
Spark
Unite
Untense.

Thank You For Your Love

What can I say
You took my heart away
I see a prettier world
Than what is on display

A diamond in a rose
Poetry and prose
The colors of sunrise
The river as it flows

A summer in a breeze
A piano and its keys
Prelude to a kiss
Falling to my knees

A sultry serenade
A whisky lemonade
A perfect pirouette
A sapphire cascade

A simple moonlight gaze
Snowdrops and sun rays
A smile at its crest
Sinatras and Bublés

A savoury perfume
An ambitious feathered plume
A silver flavored light
Twilight in full bloom

I'm learning I can fly
Like a rainbow through the sky
Thank you for your love
I'm so happy I could cry

That Moment

I dont know when it was exactly
That I began to feel for you
But I do know how exponentially those feelings grew
I could never fathom you feeling remotely the same
But before my departure
You took my hands in yours
So affectionately, so tenderly
And you broke into a smile
And looked deep into my eyes
For that moment, you left me breathless
As if the moon had embraced the night
Or the ocean had clasped hands with the shore..
Time and space froze
And despite the din, all I could hear was my heartbeat
You said nothing, but I understood
It was just you and me, in that moment...

I had never seen your eyes so bright before
Nor look at me with such passionate interest
There was a glow about you
As though you were luminous with joy
And I could feel it in your touch..
But your smile, your most charming smile
Was what enthralled me the most
I could stay engaged in this moment for hours...

I felt my entire being become immersed
Immersed in an overwhelming love for you
Never had I imagined, that I could love another with such intensity
But here you were
With your soft, warm hands, enveloping mine
And your captivating smile
It was all I could do to restrain my arms from flinging out to embrace you..

You looked at me so differently than before
As though a soaring love coursed through you too
And in that infintesimal fragment of time
You flipped my world on its head
And changed my life..
You were a miracle right before me
Unfolding..
Your soft gaze held me spellbound
I felt our hearts touch
And with every beat now
Our love grew stronger...

The moment flickered and suddenly cracked
And I turned to leave
As I walked away, I realized I had your love with me and you possessed mine
And I knew that our hearts would always be connected.
I pictured you in my mind and felt your smile,
Your love.
I can never forget that moment
When you altered my existence for all time.

Across Infinity, those few seconds are my most precious.

No matter how far I go, or for how long
I will love you Always
An Always that holds forever
Because when I fell in love with you
It was like throwing a piece of ice in to water
And allowing it to melt
And I dissolved into you
To become one with you
Inseparable.

An Angel Of The Light

The epitome of purity
She is an Angel, here to guide us.
We ask her counsel
She always presents the Truth
Unwavering.
Like a Phoenix
She rises, over and over
Each time the dark sets in
Holding the hands of all around her
Pulling them out of the well of delusion as well.
She cares.
Genuinely
And wants for the good to happen
For all.
She prays
With all her Soul as the offering
Without doubt or hesitation
For the Lord is her refuge
In all the trying times
And in contentment too.
There is great power in her voice
Her each word calls in the Light
It cleanses all those who listen
And beams realization to those who cant.
Selfless and giving
She spreads her affection
As does a knife to butter on toast
To each corner
In each direction
Evenly.
And for all.
For her it matters little
If one is tall or not
If one is dark or fair
Or of any of the uncountable distinctions
That man chooses to divide each other with
For her, each is special
Just the way they are.
Without reservations, she loves each
And without exceptions.
She finds the Light
And will lead everyone to it
The shining spirit that she is.
Every ounce of knowledge she acquires
She generously distributes
To those who search
And to those in need.
She will send the music from her heart
To enrich all around her
With their Holy vibrations.
Despite her human form
She is Divine
The essence of Love personified
To be that beacon of an example
To us, and to them
To eradicate a 'them'
And bring 'us' all to be One.
She subtracts from that which overflows
And replenishes that which lacks
To create a balance in the river of our lives
So that we may prosper.
Whole.
Even to the skeptics and the non - believers
She sends her love and care
Unrestrained
Because sometimes, they're the ones that need it the most.
She acknowledges each
Whether they be great or small
And despite the unbound presence in her being
She makes none feel inferior.
She is a Soul
And yet is part of One
And enriches the love in each Soul around her
She is an Angel
An Angel of the Light
A Spirit, free
Yet, she is connected to all
And in her calm
Peace will reign
For she is the one
Whose strength and wisdom
Will envelope us all
And spread her Light
And complete the broken pieces
To unite us
From all to One.
Into the Light we shall plunge
As a single entity
And become the Light -
To see the Lord
And merge with Him
In the Ultimate Reality
In the Ultimate Heaven.
She is the Angel
The Angel of the Light
Whom we follow and trust
And like her, we shall blossom
As Love
Under the shelter of the Lord.