Shades of Grey

Can we be shades of grey
I want to live in your spectrum
Rejoice in the sunlight of your smile
And to wipe away your frown
When you're trapped in anger
Can I swim in your peace
And we can divide the melancholy bits
Can we live it all
Without having to choose
Can we be simple and complex
Can we be shades of grey?

Would you let me in
When you're feigning bravery
And let me shoulder some of your pain
You don't have to do this alone
Let yourself fall
And allow me to gather your fragile fragments
I'll piece you back together
With my love and strength as the glue.
And I'll be your banister as long as you need one
No matter how steep your life's stairs are
And don't be a fool
You need someone to hold on to
Just don't fight it
And hold on to me
I will see you through

Let us quarrel
Argue till we're spent.
Go ahead
Cut me with your words
Let it out
Let me be your release
It's OK
I'll get back up again

Grant me audience to your laughter
I will sync my smile with yours
I will fuel your amusement
And afford you further reason to chuckle.
And the sun may set
And rise beyond the morning
But we will be constant
In mirth
I guarantee it

Come
I have happiness to spare
Let us bask in the breadth of this joy
And let it envelop us
Till we don't know where I end and you begin.
We can fly
On this magic carpet of bliss
Such a things exists
And I will take you there

And when you're cold
And weak
And falling out of strength
Unlock the door
I will surround you with my care
And heal you back to stability.
There is no disease
That my love can't cure
And I will lay me down
So that you can stand back up

When you crave stillness
I will halt
When you desire solitude
I will disappear
I understand space and silence
And how it will replenish you
I will give you what you want
Even if I can't give it to you

If I feel you, I feel it all
It can't be just the merriment
Or the misery alone
And I don't want to choose
To only love you
Or not to love you at all.

Can we not be black and white?
Can we be shades of grey?

Unimportant

Have you ever felt like you're not important?
Like most of the time, you're an outcast?
In every game or opportunity
You always get picked last?

You try so hard, only to fit in
And you want to be you, just as you are
But whatever you do is always wrong
And everything they say, leaves a scar

None of them understand how tough it is
To be insulted, alone and ignored
They dont know how it feels to break
And not be strong or emotionally insured

They make you feel something's wrong with you
Because it seems you'll never do anything right
Either you're too short, or your skin is too dark
And the color of your hair just adds to your plight

They never attempt to understand you
Because that, for them, is a futile task
They dont care if you can sing or paint
They will never make an effort to ask

It's a cruel game that they all play
Taking advantage and cutting you so
Despite their ignorance, they feel you are an idiot
If you speak of Einstein, Washington or Truffaut

What do you do, where do you turn?
Will you ever reach a place where you stop trying?
You dont know why only you are the scapegoat
And wonder if you'll ever stop silently crying

They'll only ever be nice to you
To set you up to fall
Then they'll walk right over you
With no hint of remorse at all

They'll see your pain, but they wont care
They actually think it's all an act
Just a bid to get attention, they feel
With no basis whatsoever in fact

You never had it as easy as the others
But they blame you for sorely lacking
It's not your fault, you should know and believe
So dont feel guilty for your edges cracking

It is the most difficult life
To be so afraid, insecure and alone
All you ever wanted was a little support
And a little kindness to be shown

But you are and will be unimportant
Your feelings dont matter and nor do you
You can never win, by their rules
And you will never be part of their crew

But know this, oh Wounded One
Your Fate will change in due time
Just hang in there and summon your strength
And you'll turn out just fine

What they know is only superficial
What you know will carry you through
What you can develop is infinite
Just have faith in your strength for that's what's true

And know this too, for it's not false
You will always shine bold and bright
For unlike them, who cannot see the flame
You carry the Torch of what is good and right

You may be unimportant to them
But they are unimportant overall
And never forget that those who trip others
Ultimately end up with the hardest fall.

The Floor Became The Floor Again

As the thick, bold tears fell from her eyes
She clutched at the walls for solace
She was weak with every tear
And could not unbreak what had happened to her.

She folded herself and simmered to the ground
Holding herself, to replace the absence of another
The tears continued to fall
Alongside the searing pain.

She had gotten lost outside herself
She had forgotten what it meant to be peaceful
Happiness had become a concept
And love was storybook material.

She touched the floor beneath her
It was cold and hard, but smooth
"Smooth," she thought, "It's almost seamless"
But took comfort in the fact that it was solid

Solid, unlike the pain she felt
Tangible, like something to hold
For so long, she had wandered in an unreal life
But here, the floor embraced her.

All was not as it should have been
Demons from within had led her without
She was fed lies from the people she trusted
And what she possessed, she had no need for.

Quietly, she gave in to her tears
Allowing her eyes and self to softly burn
She could no further think, speak or feel
But blindly pressed her hand to the floor.

She surrendered all she believed
And harboured no lust, nor fear, nor anger
An explanation didn't matter now
She only wanted to let go

Un-see the seen
Un-think the thought
Be allowed to fall and upright herself
Unburdened with guilt or excuses.

In a moment untouched, she felt a ripple within
As though her heart were pressed back into place
She felt her Soul begin to softly glow
She was now calm, at rest, but still to be at peace.

The floor now felt warm beneath her tips
She no longer crouched within herself
A soaring love enveloped her Soul
And her eyes closed, burning no more.

She saw the glow and touched the love
It was no dream, nor illusion, nor farce
Suddenly she understood all so clear
And the floor became the floor again.

Exhausted, but starting to feel complete
She noticed her breathing deepen and liven
She witnessed the sweet sound of her heartbeat
And she absorbed the punctuated solitude into each piece of her being.

She was dazed, but in the clear
Slightly dizzy, but strong with resolve
Her eyes were moist, but only to replenish
Her comfort was now the calm that surrounded her.

She was alone, yet no longer felt so
In her quiet, her peace was restored
She smiled and lifted herself to full measure
And breathed from within, in the wilderness no more.

Not To Be

Emptiness can only exist
In the sea surrounded by despair
And you swallow each minute whole
When the seconds drown as they burn by

You offer no regret
In the demise of all consciousness
But your Soul quakes from within
And the ashes dissolve once more

Darkness is your strong point
For only you can gauge it's depth
Living in it for so long
You have forgotten how life looks

Breathing not, stirring not
You dream an endless dream
Swirling in the well of illusion
You see no truth, you feel no light

You seem to exist, but only just so
Through methods of wrong doing and mis-thought
It matters to you not if you will ever be Right
You will only channel that path which tramples all else

You are not meant to overcome your life, you should know
But join the dance of this world
Yet you chose not to blow with the breeze
And puncture the hearts of all you meet

You should be condemned, here & now
For you burned, hurt, stabbed and forsaked
You bear no guilt, nor responsibility nor feeling
Your heart is so cold, it's hard to conceive the thought

You need to know what destruction you caused
Had you been the receiver, you would be different
You would have seen the illogical, the ridiculous and unfair
And realized, other people do feel

You showed me the evil of anger
How 'normal' becomes suspended
But I saw the after-effects too
Where only remorse, sorrow and loss remain

You made everyday painful
And feel like everything I did was a sin
But you showed me that not even trying to understand another
Only leaves you surrounded by animosity, alone

You believed cheating others would enrich you
And in pilfering, each moment you got
But you lived in fear of being caught at all times
And it was always visible in your every move

You thought you always deserved respect
And demanded it with full measure
But one can never demand, only command respect
And you can never receive it, if you cant learn to give it

You never showed Love, even when you wanted to
You felt ashamed to the very core
You never let what's pure embrace you
And I learnt I should express it every chance I get

You proved by example, with your misdeeds and your wrath
Through selfishness and disregard for all
What not to imbibe in order to evolve
For you were stationary with no love or happiness

Forgiveness is difficult with the amount of suffering you caused
So is understanding, compassion and a prayer
Even though you still feel you did nothing wrong
I will still find the strength to exonerate

Now I am free of your chains
And the mental and emotional war with myself
I still hurt because of what you did
But I thank you for helping me learn how not to be.