Life Is Lived

It is possibly the whirl

Of the seasons and the tides

Of rain and shine

Of waxing and waning

And circles within the mind

That shelter us

From the parallel to life

Its pair and opposite.

It is perhaps growing accustomed

To witnessing cycles and loops

Of each day and its reverse

That throws us into conundrum

When a halt appears.

No need for thought

No need for words

No use for desire

No use for change

Holding no purpose

For fire and cold

For the wind and sun

For the senses

For the shell,

The tangible and intangible

All are but the same now

Existing on a non-existent plane.

No use for breath

For time

For space,

That too

Falls in the same pocket.

Perhaps it is the permanence of death

Which is what stuns.

It drains the sense

And reason

From the self

Because dipping the pen in this ink

Once

Paints everything black

Blank

Into the endless.

But this is not an opportunity to crumble

Drenching yourself with despair

With unbent reason

With the distress of sorrow

With insane grief.

No.

This position is a farce

As untrue as a night with sun

And a breath without air,

Because you never truly leave

You were here once

And will be beyond

Translating death, in fact, to be

Nothing.

Death is not an end

It is simply a pause

Realized or unrealized

Rolling out its red carpet

Before the Soul begins to beat again.

Estranged from Life

But only for a moment

The Soul repletes

To be reinstated

And sanctioned

Into the living.

This state is not to be mourned

It is to be rejoiced and honoured

For a life dwells on through its life

Each second spent

Replenished

And cherished.

You live on through the photographs of the memories in each mind

Cradled within the Unseen Eye

Each frame of each breath

Now a treasure

And pleasure

To perceive.

You persist and subsist

Through the sheen of your sparkle

Your verve

Vivacity

Resplendent with each heartbeat

Shared with each Soul.

Animate

And shimmering

Your life sings

As it is born each day

Shining as the sun shines

Upon a deep blue sky.

No force

No matter how dense

Can consolidate life into a box

And conceal it

Behind the wings of unliving.

Life is lived.

It is cherished

And smothered with passion

And breathed

And relished

And delighted in.

Infinitely.

Nothing can take that away.

Changed

He stands upright

Yet leaning

Hinting for support to the energies around him

He's taken a large stone to the heart

Catching him off guard

And he watches helplessly as the cracks radiate out

Even beyond his being

Leaving him shattered

Yet standing.

A whole world in his life has been demolished

And all he can do is watch

Witness

As it lays whimpering before him

Sighing in agony

Chipping away at him

With each breath.

He's swimming in the arrhythmia of his surroundings

Attempting to search for a solution

Looking for any sign of hope

Before the night mists over.

He wants to count on Time

To play sport

And throw him a few chunks of Its endless stream

Stretching the Now

To help him salvage what he can.

He wants to coat a balm

Over all the loss

And all those about him

Who are enduring a reality

Asymmetrical to anything they ever imagined.

He can see the pain

Beneath their brave smiles

He can sense the defeat

Hidden in their eyes

And especially the fear

Of the uncertain road ahead -

Its practically tangible in air.

But he knows

He cannot allow himself to disintegrate

Not right now

Time will provide for that later.

Right now

He must concentrate his focus

Unsplinter his Spirit within

And wake his resources

As the dusk around him begins to sob.

On his shoulders rest the tears of many

Whose Earth has been pulled out from under them

And who lie

Shivering

Among the rubble

Half wanting to assimilate into it

To escape the effort of re-establishing themselves

Half searching for support

In the only thing remaining standing

No matter how frail.

He wasn't waiting for Change

But now that it's here

Staring him in the face

He needs to do more than just stare back.

It might take a few moments

To reassemble his strength

But he will translate into that Fire

Majestic in potential

Blazing with resolve

And soldier on

Rebuilding what he can restore

And creating fresh what he cant.

He'll pick up what's fallen -

Possessions, emotions, energy..

Be the crutch to the unstable heart

Be the scaffolding to the unsettled mind

Be the pillar to the broken Spirit -

He will just Be

Allowing his Light to comfort the affected

Sharing his heart and hands

In blind support.

He may never attain the perfect solution

And things may never be the same again

But he never learned how to give up

And one way or another

He will phoenix from all the anguish

More resilient on the other side

More solid from within

Healed to breathe and beat once again

Revitalized

Changed.

That Moment

I dont know when it was exactly
That I began to feel for you
But I do know how exponentially those feelings grew
I could never fathom you feeling remotely the same
But before my departure
You took my hands in yours
So affectionately, so tenderly
And you broke into a smile
And looked deep into my eyes
For that moment, you left me breathless
As if the moon had embraced the night
Or the ocean had clasped hands with the shore..
Time and space froze
And despite the din, all I could hear was my heartbeat
You said nothing, but I understood
It was just you and me, in that moment...

I had never seen your eyes so bright before
Nor look at me with such passionate interest
There was a glow about you
As though you were luminous with joy
And I could feel it in your touch..
But your smile, your most charming smile
Was what enthralled me the most
I could stay engaged in this moment for hours...

I felt my entire being become immersed
Immersed in an overwhelming love for you
Never had I imagined, that I could love another with such intensity
But here you were
With your soft, warm hands, enveloping mine
And your captivating smile
It was all I could do to restrain my arms from flinging out to embrace you..

You looked at me so differently than before
As though a soaring love coursed through you too
And in that infintesimal fragment of time
You flipped my world on its head
And changed my life..
You were a miracle right before me
Unfolding..
Your soft gaze held me spellbound
I felt our hearts touch
And with every beat now
Our love grew stronger...

The moment flickered and suddenly cracked
And I turned to leave
As I walked away, I realized I had your love with me and you possessed mine
And I knew that our hearts would always be connected.
I pictured you in my mind and felt your smile,
Your love.
I can never forget that moment
When you altered my existence for all time.

Across Infinity, those few seconds are my most precious.

No matter how far I go, or for how long
I will love you Always
An Always that holds forever
Because when I fell in love with you
It was like throwing a piece of ice in to water
And allowing it to melt
And I dissolved into you
To become one with you
Inseparable.

Timely Untimely

What if you could mix up Time?
And live your Present in the Past?
Would you wander through the Future a while
And live your Past last?

Could the Past translate into the Future
Into the Present and back to the Past?
Would you move back from the Past or ahead from the Future
And filter the Present unasked?

Would you dive in & out through the tunnels of Time
And change what you didn’t like?
Your fights with Mom, your school, your boss
And date Steve instead of Mike?

Would you marry 5 times and live out each life
Just for fun, then return to the start?
Or would you age younger, from 40 to 20
Then loop it, 6 months apart?

Would you visit the Greats, the Legends of Ago
Be they Sportsman, Musician or King?
Or would you step ahead to see who’s next
Who’ll rule, play or sing?

Would you change your profession and visit reunions
Each time with a different history?
Would you change your hairstyle the moment it’s cut
And do the same with your whiskery?

How many times would you change your choices?
Would you even choose to die?
Would you hop, skip and jump through Time for all time?
And never let Time just go by?

Would you ever live with one decision you’ve made
And live with it unaltered?
Or would you rewind the good times and fast forward the pain
And smudge out the times you faltered?

How many lives would you live in one life?
Would life even be complete?
Would years, months or seconds even mean anything now?
Would age become obsolete?

It would be amusing if you traversed alone
But what if everyone learned to travel?
Whose Present would affect whose Future or Past?
How then would Time unravel?

There would be no system, there’d be only chaos
Like a washing machine, only stranger
What once was, would change with each person
A castle could become a manger

What is up, would be sideways, and sideways would be down
What would Life be in a world so suspended?
You’d never know anything for sure, if it’s real
Or how it began, developed or ended

You would never learn the lessons of Time
You would never truly Live
Because this would be a selfish life
Like give & take, without the give

You may not get older, like Dorian Gray
But ageing will always be different from growing
You think you can outsmart Time in Its game
But presuming is always different from knowing

You’ll never know what True Joy is
An experience of ‘Just One Time’
Because ‘One’ is what Time really is
Past – Present – Future sublime.

[Written: 3:30 am, 28th June 2009]

Metamorphasis

He stands unsheltered upon the rock-face cliff
But he grows no fear for the height of the fall
He only stares out and above for the message
To display for him solutions to his wonderings

He carries the desire to fulfill himself
In learning, understanding and accepting
He wishes to end this estrangement within
And extricate himself from its malignant grasp

He knows it represents a quest
Which shall be rocky to conquer
But he is prepared to tolerate and sacrifice
To engage in the attainment of this Peace

He is halfway there, with his resolve
But can see the mountains ahead
He grabs a fist full of determination
And lets himself take a white step of faith

Unafraid, he ploughs through clouds of confusion
And dusts the blindness off himself
He wipes shadows clear from the root
And emerges through gusts of darkness, undefeated

He looks about himself and sees no injury
He sifts through the winds and races on
Suddenly he sees the crux of his journey in front of him
And stops, tranquil, to claim his breath

Simplicity was that breath of silence
That pondered upon diffused thoughts
He would no longer sink into his abstract life
But rekindle himself, in what remained unshattered

Quiet belief would reign unrestricted
Followed by tender surrender
He would bathe in this profound calm
And hold patience in his hands once more

He is engulfed by a Peace beyond passion
His knowledge is reimbursed by a blinding flash
His polish would be renewed by this light
As his arms eagle out to receive

Shyness has dissolved in the ground beneath him
And apathy refuses to linger on
He can now feel no restraint to change
And un-sense surprise, wonder and amazement

He has no need for acid tears
And allows them to swim into evaporation
He is purified by the abandonment of the false
And releases his dreams from his depth to oblivion

He is crippled no further by ego
he fosters no attachment to guilt
He can forgive who he used to be
And now embrace who he has become

His heart filters what is unrequired
His mind guides, but follows his path
He derives his strength from pure will and breath
While his Soul, as his essence, is what we now see

I Never Told Anyone...

All my life, I've never been
It took so long to figure out what I was doing wrong
But now I'm gonna change
From now on I'm just gonna Be.
No more thinking what other people think I should be
No more holding back
No more pretending
No more giving up
No more being afraid
I'm coming back to what I should have
And I'm gonna live each moment
As each moment
In each moment
Coz when you look at it
You'll only be in the moment, in that moment
And if u wait
Or let it go
Or just aren't there to witness it
It's gone
And you dont get it back.
The first time I actually watched time slip
It frightened the daylights out of me
One moment she was talking
And I was thinking, right now she's talking and soon she's gonna stop
And soon enough, she stopped
And that time, however short
Was gone.
I just think
How many moments we let slip
And how many of them we are actually there for
And out of a lifetime
How many chunks of time we just dont live
There really is no time for fear
No time to not take action
Not say what you really feel -
When you feel it
You cant wait if you have to do the right thing
If you have to stop corruption
If you have to tell someone you love them
If you have to be who you are
If you have to change the world
The time is NOW.
Not in 10 minutes
Not in half an hour
Not tomorrow -
Today.
Right Now.

The biggest thing I ever learnt was
You shouldn't stop changing
And it's never to late to change.
And if there's something that you can do without
Or just approach differently
You should
Coz it only proves that you're still learning
And that means your mind and heart are open
Which produces quite a feeling when you think about it.
So many things, if just altered
Can make life so much more pleasurable.
If we can stop fighting
Can stop pointing fingers
Stop destroying things in anger
Stop getting angry
Stop being so violent
Stop being so rigid in our beliefs
Stop denouncing people for what they believe in
Stop being so attached to things, events, people
Stop holding on to grudges and arguments of the past
Just stop
And take a look around
How much pain we cause ourselves and others.
We can change that
Start doing the right things
Follow your heart
And you'll find the way.

Everything just starts with a realization
When you have those moments of reckoning
Where inwardly, you just see something for what it is
Objectively
And can see what you have been doing
And see the difference between both
That's where it all starts.
That's the place to make the change.

One of the worst things, I feel, is when people judge
Other people, themselves, anything
Coz judgement always meant an opinion, to me
It can never be without bias
You always say what you think the other person should be like
And when you judge yourself
Sometimes you can put yourself on a pedestal
And say, no one is better than me
Or you could be the other extreme
And say, Gosh, I'm so worthless
It's never fair.
Judgement just means you cant accept what's in front of you for what it is.
How different the world would be if we could change that.

Sometimes people just need direction
Someone to guide them
Support them
To say, everything's gonna be alright
To reinforce their own belief in themselves
It really helps when someone just cares
They dont have to fix your problem
But if they just listen
That's also a big thing.
It means a lot.
We can change not being there for each other
Coz each part of Energy from each of us
Does really end up larger than the sum of it's parts.

We are so much stronger than we realize
We posses all we need
With a few tweaks here or there
Not only can we change ourselves
We can change anything we want to
And truly make a difference.

I wonder how many of us have listened to ourselves.
If we sit quietly long enough
The way out, the answer always comes
In some form or the other.
It just takes belief.

I always felt all these things
But was too afraid to say anything before
I'm changing that now
I'm gonna be free of fear
To do the right thing
And follow my heart
And I'm gonna start living
And being me.
From Today.
Right Now.
Coz that's where it all begins.