Windcheater

No more scars to be etched

Within the flesh of my raw emotional armour

I wear my windcheater against your words

Your whip and sword

And watch your might dilute.

Staring into your eyes

I no longer see the black

The unfiltered darkness

The curses of the world,

The rain of comprehension

Has drained my eyes clean

There's no mirror in your eyes anymore

My heart doesnt beat through your gaze anymore

Nor do the seasons rise and fall

Rivers breathe and flow

Winds bend and break...

Mysteries aren't wonderous anymore

No more

Not those represented lies

There are no more valiant acted-battles

Nor are there false tributes

To your trust in me

At least I learned

And learned to repair

Before the flood of this betrayal

Massacred my ability to reboot my heart and mind

Refresh and reload

Before the concrete set.

Innocence in its depth

Love in all its brilliance

Mirth from all its infinite quarters

Were poured back into my core

The dirt of the pain

The torture

Was decanted

And dusted

With all the apprehension and suspended confusion

To regenerate

Rebuild

Replenish

Burn forward and out

Into a continuation

A divine oblivion

Restored.

Life Is Lived

It is possibly the whirl

Of the seasons and the tides

Of rain and shine

Of waxing and waning

And circles within the mind

That shelter us

From the parallel to life

Its pair and opposite.

It is perhaps growing accustomed

To witnessing cycles and loops

Of each day and its reverse

That throws us into conundrum

When a halt appears.

No need for thought

No need for words

No use for desire

No use for change

Holding no purpose

For fire and cold

For the wind and sun

For the senses

For the shell,

The tangible and intangible

All are but the same now

Existing on a non-existent plane.

No use for breath

For time

For space,

That too

Falls in the same pocket.

Perhaps it is the permanence of death

Which is what stuns.

It drains the sense

And reason

From the self

Because dipping the pen in this ink

Once

Paints everything black

Blank

Into the endless.

But this is not an opportunity to crumble

Drenching yourself with despair

With unbent reason

With the distress of sorrow

With insane grief.

No.

This position is a farce

As untrue as a night with sun

And a breath without air,

Because you never truly leave

You were here once

And will be beyond

Translating death, in fact, to be

Nothing.

Death is not an end

It is simply a pause

Realized or unrealized

Rolling out its red carpet

Before the Soul begins to beat again.

Estranged from Life

But only for a moment

The Soul repletes

To be reinstated

And sanctioned

Into the living.

This state is not to be mourned

It is to be rejoiced and honoured

For a life dwells on through its life

Each second spent

Replenished

And cherished.

You live on through the photographs of the memories in each mind

Cradled within the Unseen Eye

Each frame of each breath

Now a treasure

And pleasure

To perceive.

You persist and subsist

Through the sheen of your sparkle

Your verve

Vivacity

Resplendent with each heartbeat

Shared with each Soul.

Animate

And shimmering

Your life sings

As it is born each day

Shining as the sun shines

Upon a deep blue sky.

No force

No matter how dense

Can consolidate life into a box

And conceal it

Behind the wings of unliving.

Life is lived.

It is cherished

And smothered with passion

And breathed

And relished

And delighted in.

Infinitely.

Nothing can take that away.

Snapshot

A breach

Subtle as a breath

Whisks a fraction of time

Away from its stream

Leaving behind a silent frame

In the wake of its run.

Surrounding the stillness

With a wisp from memory

Lies this magnificent trick

From the present

To graze the past

And smile the light of day

In futures to come.

This pause

Symbolic

And deliberate

Endures

Living through each moment

Deepening its well

Of character and life

Of mystery and wonder

And displaying that catch of a second

Cupped in the hands of Time.

That snapshot

Weathered and rusted

Clutches that sacred fragment

Of the occasion

Designed by the moment

To outlive its existence

And to persist the breadth of each new day

Sharpening its splendor

And washing all those

Gazing mutedly within it

With delicate ecstasy

Diffused by the unmalleable reality

Of a Present, from the Past

Playing like a projection

And perceiving the miracle

That Change,

Time's old mate

Devises.

Each particle

Solidifies in the mind

To create its brilliant station

As a recollection

Sanctified

And accomplishes its absolute

In function

Intention

And purpose.

This animate spot

Spills into a tranquil halt

To be perpetually frozen

In its truth

And simplicity

Contained within

And experienced

Witnessed

As an incredulous marvel

Through its image.

Illusion

Singing away the clean melody

Only replicated by the seas

Where winds rescue the waves from each other

Simmer and flow

From one to the next

Feeling the delicate spray across his face

From the seas who shake hands with the rocks

He stands within the scene

Understanding its illusion

Its' substituting for the truth

The skies freeze in the shades of black

The dark of the night

The sheet of twinkling sprinkled across the charcoal expanse

It's real

Yet it's not

Just like the air around him

This, with it's partner, the mist

Capturing swirls and waves

Through and through

In and out of its fabric

To quell itself into bouts of silence

Where everyone just pauses

And purses

To enliven the contrast

Between their activity and temperance.

He watches it slow

And shake up its pace

And sleep down again

Into a wistful bliss

Be he is not fooled

By its simplicity

Nor beauty

Nor grace

Nor touch.

He knows the truth

The one that lingers within

And tempers this existence with that

He stays aware

And completes it in his mind

That the truth is only One

No matter how solid its alternative may seem

He knows

That each particle is an illusion

Despite its density
Despite its sense

And he can persist

In the purity of his knowledge

Unoblique

Undivided

Without the illusion of feeling

To be absorbed into the Source

As each piece of existence

From this false plane

To gather on the other side

As equal as he was meant to be

Solid

Only in truth

And meaning.

Oh Tear Ones

"Please help me weep," she asked the tears

"It's not fair that you fill me so

Let me redeem my sanity in exchange

For the hurt you carry

And need to express.

Listen
Even the clouds offload

The rain outside is playing her music

To coat my sobs

And pull a curtain over the silence.

You have nothing to fear, oh Tear Ones

No one will discover where you fell

Or of your passage

They hold wisdom not

Of your existence so far

From oblivion you will emerge

And into oblivion you will sink

These hands will wipe away

And remnants of the trails you leave behind

Please

Just come

Sing
Weep."

For The Solitary Heart

Exempt me from this anguish

I strive to seek another realm

Where prejudice is illusionary

And humanity occupies swift distinction.

Where pity is not a substitute for compassion

And strength reigns

Centering all

Resolutely within.

Where pretense is an impostor

Unable to hijack your senses

And jealousy wilts

In the aura of this space.

Where judgement is just

In discrimination

And reason

And left to the Supreme

Unfettered.

Let me be swallowed

Into the channels of this haven

And dwell unrestrained

Without fear

Of abandonment

Or disintegration.

Let this render refuge

For the Solitary Heart

Where love can ride the seas of the Soul

Bound into the skies of the mind

Conquer the passion of this being

And recede into the serenity of the Spirit

Soak up this brilliance

Shining on the inside

Be fortified in its calm

And reside here

Reinforced.

Your Love Was Never Mine To Own

You spoke to my heart by your smile and touch

Your seeds of affection here were sown

It took me so long to realize, my love

Your love was never mine to own.

You'd sigh each time I'd stroke your hair

Like it meant something special to you

Was it my imagination? Was I mistaken?

Was it even remotely true?

You'd hold me so close when we'd embrace

So much closer than what was normal

Why does it feel so different now?

So impersonal, so strained, so terribly formal?

Your eyes would speak, they'd carry a depth

Of a closeness never else shown

Why are they so intensely empty now?

Was that understanding purely on loan?

How can you just halt what you're feeling?

How can you just erase it so clean?

It makes me wonder if it was even real

How can it de-exist? How can it never have been?

I couldn't have fallen in love with you faster

It was so expertly, so brilliantly played

You succeeded in pulling off this disaster

And still convinced me that you were betrayed

You left me to wither, to shrivel, and carry

The burden of a breaking heart

You were content slinking around in the background

Watching, uncaring, as it crumbled apart

You spoke to my heart by your smile and touch

Your seeds of affection here were sown

It took me so long to realize, my love

Your love was never mine to own.